Growth of the Human Awareness – A Proposed Model

Why am i suggesting this ……. ?

The Why: As adults (and even teenagers), we struggle with parts of ourselves that make us uncomfortable….. things like ill-suited emotional reactions and having difficulty with expressing ourselves appropriately in situations. We honestly do not know where these issues come from, but they seem to be there just under the surface, waiting to pop up and mess up our life. We need a fix. We constantly feel like something is missing….

The How: We need a method that WORKS. We need a way to rid ourselves of these things that pull us out of sync with a smooth flowing life in context with the people we choose to live with.

The Problem with all this: We have tried virtually everything and are at the point of giving up on ever finding a way to live our days in a smooth flowing context with the people we choose to live with.

The solution: Find where these ill-suited personality traits come from, use a methodology that gets to the root of them, and bring them into a comfortable context where their “oddity” personality traits are resolved and they are content and happy members of our personality “family”.

These following “brain systems”, in our neuroscientific understanding to date, are the systems in place in adult humans brains that relate to our experiencing of the world around us. This does not include the automatic controlling processes in the body or other unconscious systems.

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TPN – Task Positive Network – focused, attention, related to breath counting. Breath going in and out of the nose. Here and Now. Sense centred attention. Source of quiet focused experiencing.

DMN – Default Mode Network – carries ruminative self-referential thinking. Mental Blah blah blah. Seems to be infected by whatever the “I, Me, My” part of us is chewing on at the present moment, and pulls us out of direct sense centred attention.

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I am positing here that at our DNA conception, the human awareness starts as a “blank piece of paper”. We are a combination of:
– unconscious body functions
– then subconscious instinctive functions as we grow and have experiences, then to conscious awareness.
– Around age 7, the conscious awareness begins as a “Sergeant Major” (ego) – a soldier functioning small parts from birth, working with the other parts of our subconscious awareness.

When a person becomes fully conscious around age 7 (basically when a person realizes that they are naked and relates to themselves as separate from “other”) everything changes and the struggle between subconscious and conscious begins.

When this consciousness awakes, it gradually takes the lead (like a little sergeant major), as all the other bits and pieces of consciousness that are controlled individually by the subconscious, and there is a sense that they need to be organized. We are not taught how to do this, so most of us organize very poorly. But we seem to not be comfortable just letting the bits and pieces of our awareness run wild.

There are many “stuck in time” subconscious parts of our person which, before we had the ability to make decisions and deal with things consciously, are little “locked in time” reactions to certain things that we bumped into in our largely subconscious years. They are the source of the blah blah blah we experience thru our DMN system.

These subconscious parts of our person continue on, slightly below our conscious level….. and can be triggered by similar events to the one that originally caused them to be “stuck them in time”.
When they are triggered, we react in a very automatic way – a response that was subconsciously built due to some stimulus we bumped into early in life.
But they remain in the subconscious, and so the conscious aware mind has difficulty fitting them into the “grid pattern” that it begins to build for our conscious life. One of the main mistakes of our sergeant major is to try to suppress these locked in time little troublemakers… and that makes them more and more frustrated and angry…… and we pay for it.

I call these little subconscious guys “gremlins” because they tend to be angry little trouble makers, causing trouble for us in our normal life. And the more we try to force them, or suppress them, the more angry and troublesome they get.

The Self Inquiry method is the only “one on one” answer to this problem, in that it is me, dealing with another “estranged” part of me. There is no “one size fits all” method that can do this work.

Below is a transcript of my recording June 2 2024 when this popped up….

The picture of the TPN being the conscious Ego “Big Brother” scenario, trying to take care of the “personality family”.
There are all sorts of little DMN gremlins in there that are trying to disturb that, and the TPN is trying to resolve them. Possibly the first thing we do when we were younger, is we just tried to suppress those gremlins or try to work around them. They became dislocated, and locked in that time. We don’t want to deal with them, and they buildup and build up in our earlier years. But there are some folks who manage to figure out a way to not have them build up, and to basically pocket them and then lose them, so they don’t become angry and fight us in our process of trying to build a more organized personality structure. But those type of persons are truly few and far between.
It is the dislocations in our personality structure that give us suffering. And that in the end, this is why we need to both peel the onion (self-inquiry rooting out), which is the gradual method, and also need to switch the toggle switch of the TPN, which is the sudden method (flipping instantaneously from ruminative mode to Task Positive Mode). Both do their own task, so we need both processes at work to arrive at a unified person.

The peeling of the onion is the dealing with those gremlins in a proper way, accepting them, allowing them to drop their issues, and to be re-integrated into our personality structure.

SO, in this scenario what it looks like is that you have got a child being born with total and complete awareness abilities happening inside them but are too young to utilize them properly. (We are not fallen creatures, we are the way we were made to be!)
So for the first part of their life, as in the animal species, we simply have instincts there, and the instincts bump into life issues and they don’t know how to deal with them. So primitive reactive methods are created in the processes of dealing with them. Then one day, around the age of 7 years old, the “Adam experience” pops up, and we’ve got a conscious ego starting, so everything before are subconscious DMN gremlins, and then the conscious TPN starts to organize them, and doesn’t do a good job at all, and ends up suppressing some, and using other poor methodologies to deal with these little brothers. Along with this it probably also creates some new DMN Gremlins, because its methodologies are so poor – it maybe even builds some more simple issues, combining into larger things forming complex DMN Gremlins, and then you can actually end up with an actual demon experience where it gets so messed up inside there , it explodes to the outside and takes a person over sometimes..

So from the psychotherapy point of view, a person could say that the individuation process is simply this… that if a person manages to resolve the DMN gremlins properly, bringing them up into the present, where they are not time locked as little gremlins of hurts of the past. And as the DMN gremlins become integrated, there is a larger area of unified consciousness in the TPN that allows it to be more continuously in that mode, not having that mode be constantly hindered and disturbed by those gremlins, not because they are beaten up and told to shut up, but because they are brought into the family to be active functioning members of the family, and if there is any type of sainthood that occurs, it would be through this method.